SOS

my heart is sick. my family is in a terrible place right now, and i don't know how to fix it. I can't trust them. When I trust them they use it to hurt eachother. It hurts me to see them use things that i trusted in confidence to hurt one another. I want to vomit. I wish I could throw it all up, all the poison, and it could be like it never happened. Where do I go from here?
I had a dream last night that a whole bunch of people broke out of an insane asylum and were chasing me, and were trying to get into the window in Grace's room. All their hands were reaching in, trying to destroy me. Trying to take me with them, to drive me crazy. I was very relieved to wake up this morning and discover I was quite safe and sound in Grace's room, there were no hands reaching in the window. All the same I feel heart sick in my waking hours, and rather torchered in my sleeping ones.
Lord, please show me how to love my family through it all. I don't what to do. Help me! Have mercy on us Father!