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I don't know where to begin. I have had so many things swirling in my mind the last weeks. Money. Classes. my major. European quarter. And the fact that uncertainty and some fear is mixed in with all of it. The easiest of these things to trust God about is money, which is good, but I wish I trusted Him more with my future. Lord change my heart. forgive me for my pretty pathetic lack of faith. God has really been working in me this quarter, which is awesome.Through this I have come to recognize how much farther I have to go still. My thoughts and sentences are not cohereing and flowing very well, my mind is too all over the place.
Yesterday i went hiking and it was awesome to be out in God's nature. It was refreshing to not think about my life at spu where I am constantly warring to find peace and give my doubts/fears to Abba.
He has been doing lots of reconstruction in my heart lately. When I was 16 ish I always took such joy in worship and quiet time. I think he is bringing me back to that place, the joy of salvation. I have really loved spending time with the Lord latey, it doesn't feel empty and pointless like it has in the past at times. Bwana Asifiwe!!! Amen