Well Linds is gone for the weekend and I have the room to myself. She has been acting really distant lately. i don't know what to make of it. She pulls away at the same time as I really need someone to be there for me. God has provided others to be there for me. Anelecia has been an awesome support to me this week, and Graces listening has done me so much good.
Despite all that I still have often felt my heart weighing a little heavy. I don't know if it's the winter time blahs, my health, or stress maybe. All the same I just about break every time I have to eat a meal alone. I just have such a feeling of loneliness these last weeks. It's not easy, but I know I need to be thankul when God takes me through these times, they keep me compassionate. After all I have been praying for God to soften my heart, maybe this a way to do that.